Here is the pattern so far. I wake up, listen to all the birds, wish I could identify them, and then tried to convince myself that I need to get up. India has so many birds and they are all very loud. I wish there was an app where you could record Birdsong, feed it in, and know the name. It would be so cool, for example, if I could say that I listened to a barbet, a warbler, a Kingfisher, and the kite in rapid succession. I have learned to recognize the sound of squirrels and the hoot of the kite, but nothing beyond that.
It was about 515 when I woke up. I started the meditation at 550, after checking email and stuff. at 554, I am ashamed to say, that I got up to remove the milk from the fridge. I always do this. I take out the milk and keep it outside so that it can warm up before I heated for coffee. I think I’m obsessed with energy efficiency. To my detriment. I came back, feeling bad, and decided that I would meditate for a little longer today.
Instead, I did pranayama. I began with kapalabhati because my neighbor said that he had lost a lot of weight because of doing that. Abhishek told me that the proper way to do kapalabhati was to slow down the breathing in the end to the point where you are sort of lost between inhalation and exhalation. It’s such a lovely image. I tried it but it didn’t work for me. I did 60 rounds, and then inhale and exhale slowly for five rounds and try to get lost between the inhalation exhalation. Then I increased the speed and I could only do 30 rounds. My heart rate went up as well.
I did brahmari after that, feeling weird as always to be making that humming sound. But I could feel my hair stand on edge as my body cool down. In Sanskrit, it is called Roma harsh or happy hair. This I suppose is how you develop intuition–by paying attention to the small things.
I did anulom vilom as well but somehow that doesn’t do much for me. I don’t know what I’m after and what I’m getting out of it. I’m not able to breathe in deeply as well. It’s very unsatisfactory, the whole thing.
I ended it with just sitting meditation. Again, a flood of thoughts came into my head–about the Blue Bloods episode I saw yesterday, about how freaky and weird Scandal was getting, and about all the things I needed to do today. I switched the channel, and boom, my thoughts slowed down. That seems to be a learning. If you want to slow down your thoughts, switch to a language that you’re not comfortable with.
That’s it. Here I am, on my wobble board, dictating this using my Dragon Dictate software.